random sianess.

-survival camp. :) yay better than last yr. hehe. brother bear.... erm. yarh. IRC is fun!! haha. jetty jump!! jumped twice.. wanted thrice budden cannot. campfire... i think quite 冷场... but at least better than last yr. [much much better] then alot of mozzie bites.

happy belated birthday to my bro!! :)

poink -*

overwhelmed by SIANness

waha. finally blog.

blah.. i dunno whether i recover alrdy or not. seriously. haihyah. but i dun care alrdy. xP i got a feeling i will nvr recover and i dint bother to count how long i have been liddat liao. :( okaes. nvm about this.. x(

ok.. actually i dunno wad to blog but just feel like blogging.
hmmph. rahh ytd's piano lesson is totally screwed. my teacher start blabbering about me then i started explainin that i am very busy. then she say no exam still busy. then haihyah.. this is not worth to be mentioned.

i seriously dunno wad to blog leh. sian

ok my brain is not working now. finally finish class tee design [back]. the front i dunno wad to put. rahh.

sian nvm.. i am stoning here. i shall stop blogging for now.

pooh

i shall blog

i already flunked all my test. the coming tests... i also dun see how well can i do.

LA. physics. IH.

so sian. imagine one month without snacks.. i am dying. and yet.. haiyoh. I seek back the days and envied them. I want to recover!! To be able to run [without ending up being coughing and breathless] to be able to breathe? To be able to eat snacks. To be able to think. To be able to shout. To have a clear and not muddled mind. It has been long. I dunno when will this be until but I hope it will END!. END!!! rahh. and never happen. not possible but i hope so. i dun want to suffocate in the corfs any more.

ok.. i have basically been slacking these days. wah. i shouldn't be. i should be studying now. ok. but somethings just dun get into my mind. nvm.

ok.. 2 more days. 2 more days and i can really slack. with all my might and no one will care. good.
ct prelims ytd. it happened so fast. I dun know what to say about it. but i can say we all did our best. (: though its not the best that we can pitch. yupps.

i dunno. there are many things to say in my mind. but i dunno how to phrase. its might not even be proper to say it here. but yarh. i made me feel kind of sad but not exactly sad. its just a negative feeling. i dunno. haih

CAMPCRAFT specialisation TEST!! jiayou sqms. (: we can do it okay?!

I wan to watch some drama serial. but was not allowed. yeap 2 days later i can watch. 2 days... reach soon. i know i flunked everything. but yarh. just let it be over. i hate block test. make me feel stress. everyone studies so much. yet. rahh. still rmb bio ... i corf the whole paper. drank alot of water. in the end make me wan to pee. rahh. hope i dun have any attacks tmr

yeaps. lalalala. i know my blog contents very sian. yarh for now. cos got nothing interesting. nvm. i think if i continue blogging everything will sleep in front of the com. i shall stop today's blog.

JIAYOU for campcraft prelims tmr!!! (:

NYCT all the way!

[hope it does not rain]

changed blogskin. x)

after a long break...

after a internal discussion...

i have decided...









to blog!

hmmph. suddenly realise how long i have not blog. then finally i cannot tahan le. all the thoughts all squeezed at the back of my mind [and the front of my mind]... i decided that i need to 发泄!

ok.. but after so long i also dunno what to start with.

yes i am quite glad that i am not having as much indgoiseitn prob as before. (:

nvm. i should first say that my topics in this post will be drastic.. cos i am just writing what i thinking.

first thing. i start blogging bcos i cannot think. cannot think ... cannot concentrate so i have to crap. i have split everything out of my mind so i can think. but it doesn't make much difference. haih. sian.

nxt week blog test.. can you believe it? aiyoh. i haven started studying. i totally cannot concentrate! i should have say.. its becos of headache. wahlao.

i am not phrasing properly... the person who reads this post probably need to do some puzzle skills. haiyah. its really what i think then i write.

how to do comprehension? dun get the passage. how to do physics? how to do essay? how to think? how to recover? how to study?

lalalala. crap.

OBS (:　
yay!!! so fun. but when i kind of think back.. i dunno what is there to tok about.
there are many funny little things. and many weird happenings. somehow i cannot recall now. how wonderful. oh lets start from first day.. what did i do. crap i cannot think. oh.. erm. ahh. adfadjfdfj... blah blah blah. *stones and think* die. i really cannot think. *崩溃* haih. oh man.. alalalalala. AHHH. WHAT DID I DO? ok forget it.. lets not start from first day.. shall write what i can rmb. FLYING FOX >.< so fun! its very very high.. they say tenzing and shackleton are the only 2 watches who did flying fox. so nice right? and they only do it once in a dunno how many weeks. waha. anw i am in tenzing. tenzing all 306 de (: shackleton also. tenzing and shackleton together is buddy watch. together 306 (: . wah. why i talk liddat.

back to flying fox. its very high.. like 5-6 stories high.. then nid to climb up the long long ladder. haven even climb half way already die. oh. yarh. we learn belaying. belaying is fun. yay. so we belay then the person climb. then flying fox belaying is tiring.. cos ladder too high. then belay until bored. flying fox.. when i jump down. its like i wanted to shout woohoo. but then somehow.. i lost my voice. i carn shout or say anything out. probably to scared. blah. they say i fly until very straight. haha. then reach the down there liao.. i was spinning. as in not my head. literally spinning. xP. many people spin also actually. but the funny thing is ppl fly in many weird posture. hahaha. nvm i shall not mention. rahh. then we go chiong to "camp 3" [no such thing] yarh its by the sea. sandy and all. nid to excrete by the sea. haha. then we pitch tent there. oh our tent is dome shape. so cute. (: lala. then went cooking. oh the food so nice lorh. got oreo,peanut biscuit, tangs, ... its so heavenly. oh yarh our watch eats ALOT. haha. everyone snatch for food. everytime like cook finish some thing.. then next moment nomore left. xP one time.. we cook rice. then we cook the 料. then 料 of course faster. then everyone eat 料 then in the end when the rice is ready all the 料 finish. then..

hiking. was navigator. (: compass and map reading and stuff. forgot a bit. but got a bit can recall. orienteering. xP hmmph. at first mixed up the road with another road. oh .. then we went pass this toilet. everyone went crazy. like "wahh i very long nvr see toilet bowl already!!" then blah... so they got toilet. then blah. then walk... walk. walk. we lead to the right place. then need to find the card. took so long man. i even went into bushes to find. xP. then blah. then only thing i can say is that the bag very heavy. actually mine is considered light as compared to those carrying tents. yups.

then we reach camp1 finally!!! the place is so heavenly. like resort. got flower. got swimming pool! got toilet bowl!! shuang! eat dinner. nice food. its cater food. (: the morning got noodles and hot dog. woohoo. then it rain. kayak supposingly.

then we go back camp 2. [oh we started from camp 2] then rain stop. we kayak! tenzing with shackleton. (: then its odd number. then yups. oh then need one person who kayak b4 to single kayak. then no choice. then i kayak single kayak. i was super nervous at first. then yup.. then blah. SINGLE KAYAK is so FUN!!! wee. learn capsize. yay .capsize is fun de lorh. but in the middle of the sea. one person capsize abit scary. but now to think of it, its super fun.. i wanted to capsize again budden yarh.. aiyah. then oh i not navigator liao. (: they say need cx leader. names are shouted. damn nervous tt time. gave the excuse of single kayak.. xP weepii. then there's this very shallow part of the sea. its in the middle of the sea!!! then its so scary lorh.. like in the middle of the sea. then its so shallow. so weird. oh then alot of my classmate wanted to pee. so they got out of their kayak and start peeing. so amusing larh. then my instructor was down there " DUN get out of the kayak!!!"

hah. then the irritating part. blah. we got back to shore. then we move everything up .the we got 1 hour to bathe and pack and move everything. so everyone went off. then the stuff are at the boat shed there. i walk back to the store and then to the shed like more than 10 times i think. spend the whole 1 hour moving things here and there. grrr. then dint bathe. then they go eat. then instructor let us bathe (: thats the good thing. tt day we got vege to cook... the cook cook . we got soup . so nice larh. though most of it is the chicken stalk thing. xP.

haihyoh. i crapped allot le. shall stop toking about OBS.

feeling rather irritated now. cos i realised i spent more than 1 day blogging. actually is i continue frm ytd. wahh.

i shall 发泄 other things now.

the chinese words part can just dun see. its really all my blabber.

虚弱。为什么我就是如此那么虚弱？原本，不管日晒雨淋，我都不会生病。但为什么？为什么会无缘无故生病？已经两个星期了。我快崩溃了。本来发烧。然后，不知什么，没烧了，伤风，咳嗽。我真的要疯了。然后淋了一阵雨，又开始发烧。然后，…… 这是我吗？我是那么脆弱的吗？不！我对我自己说不。但为什么还么好？前天，又淋了雨。又发烧。为什么！两个礼拜了！气死人。时不时就头痛。有没有搞错。什么都做不好。也许，我就是那么弱。不！我要好起来。rahh!! irritated. weakling!! rahh!! drgf. nvm. i am just blabbering. 我决定了。我要活得坚强。不能被病魔打败！加油！hope it won't go on..

blah blah.. okae carn hw haven finish. how to do. rah.
crap.

i am tired.
tired of everything. [i realise i need to sleep very often these days] [ i just slept in the afternoon after piano lesson] [ now i feel really sleepy. that happens ytd too. xP ]
tired. tired of homework. tired of test. tired of headaches. tired of coughs. tired of flu. tired. very tired. can i just sleep. and slack. sleep and slack. yeap..

blah.

sounds emo. NO! i am not emo. but just blabbering. ok nvm. i shall just go to sleep. carn stand it anymore. rahh.

-- 9.33pm,thursday [!! crap] ,13.03.08

Ok... i guessed its better. not so frequent.. so the moral is not to eat so much...

rahh i ate alot just now. sian diao.. now quite mild.

oh. rahh... feeling very grrahhh... though i think there is not much things to do but i feel that there's a lot.. grrr... i dun noe.. feeling weird now.. im not happy.. im not say sad.. not say irritated.. not say angry... but i feel more to the negative one.. i dunno what i feeling.

I WAN LEARN GUITAR!!! woots.. but i dunno whether i can cope.

now i got ct, GAP, piano... but still I WAN LEARN GUITAR!!>.<
Guitar so cool!! xD woots.. nvm i also dunno whether can. shall go ask.

waha.. can see that my blog is not so frequently seen by people. cos no one tags. :O

carn think properly now. dunno what i writing oso. haha.
lalalala... [thats alliteration]xD

i need to study like siao!!! esp IH... i think i will fail. dun understand. humanities.. rahh .. dun like.


i shall go do time plan for tmr.. (:

i always dunno how to end lehh.. cos everytime sound so sudden. haih i shall say " i am ending here.. "

i am ending here..

-18 January, 9.46pm