for some reason, i found myself in a situation, uncontrollable.

it began feww months ago where i am told to adjust my coursework to suit the theme friendship. I cracked my brain for many weeks, and finally crapped out something with substance. Upon submittion, i was relieved that it was over, and thrown away all memories about this coursework.

Few months later, i received a call. I received a prize. I WAS excited. but soon excitement turned into fear and i found myself freaking out and panicking. I realised. that i am suppose to present on my coursework.

I dunno how to do so. I forgot how this coursework came about, not to say answer any questions that anyone would probably ask. I decided... that I am dead.

Few days later, I received another call (just). A more terrible call than the previous. it says that i am selected for....
...
press interview.

At that point of time my heart SCREAMED... i freaked out. I am already worried about the presentation and now something even more serious. My world collasped and shattered.

What have i gotten myself into. Probably to others, they would be more than willing to accept this "joyous moment" but to me, someone who cannot articulate her thoughts well, someone who is quiet, someone who hates public speaking, someone who just cannot speak, this task is crazy. Insane.

AHH.. D:

Now, I just have to settle my mood. and prepare for the worst.... hope the day never comes. T_T